I hope you spent the weekend outside like we did.
I feel like I haven’t taken a full, satisfying breath in too long. You know that feeling? For the last couple of months I’ve been saying, “Yes!” to quite a few new things, and they are all good and exciting and worth my time and energy. But I haven’t given myself the space to pause in the midst of them. And somehow today is the first of November and I am looking out my kitchen window at the big, old trees in all of their yellow and orange and red glory, and I am begging myself not to miss this. Fall is my favorite season for so many reasons, but since I became a mama each season seems to come with its own collection of gifts I get to wake up and unwrap each day.
My youngest is still asleep, cheek to cheek with me, when her older sister wakes up and whispers excitedly, “Mama, it’s morning! It’s morning, Mama!” She is always so thankful for a new day, so I find myself feeling that way, too, even with the little sleep I’ve been getting as baby can’t seem to catch a break from the whole new teeth thing.
We have taken a little hiatus from our homeschooling rhythm the last week or so. My daughter’s birthday was wonderfully exhausting for everyone, and we needed to give ourselves a bit of wiggle room and grace from routine expectations afterward. I told myself we would take a week off and then jump back in, but then last Saturday my youngest cracked her head open on a rock a few minutes into a family hike and it rattled me more than I’d like to admit. I watched it happen while sitting down to get a picture taken of my big girl and myself, and I felt so much guilt. She is completely okay, but I blamed myself and felt pretty buried in that place for a few days.
I typically make a point to not use this space as a diary, so I promise this will not be a regular thing. But on that note, I do want to ask—what is it you’d like to see here? More informative posts? More photos? Both? Neither? I feel a constant internal war between wanting to live a quiet life with my children and feeling called to share what I’ve learned and what I feel passionate about for the sake of helping other mamas feel less lonely. So I’d love to know—what helps you, Mama? Where would you like to see Bare Mama go?
So much love to every one of you <3